Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Talkin Bout a Revolution

New year, new battles...

You say you want a revolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world
You tell me that it's evolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world
But when you talk about destruction
Don't you know that you can count me out
Don't you know it's gonna be all right
all right, all right

You say you got a real solution
Well, you know
We'd all love to see the plan
You ask me for a contribution
Well, you know
We're doing what we can
But when you want money
for people with minds that hate
All I can tell is brother you have to wait
Don't you know it's gonna be all right
all right, all right

ah, ah, ah, ah, ah...

You say you'll change the constitution
Well, you know
We all want to change your head
You tell me it's the institution
Well, you know
You better free you mind instead
But if you go carrying pictures of chairman Mao
You ain't going to make it with anyone anyhow
Don't you know it's gonna be all right
all right, all right
all right, all right, all right
all right, all right, all right

Thursday, December 03, 2009

The Tooth is Out There

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Look who lost her first tooth! This saweeet young thang!
A few weeks before her 5th birfday and she goes loosin teef!
She not too happy about it huh? I bet the tooth fairy had a little sumpin extra to leave this cutie pie!
Congrats Lucille McGillicutty!

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Maddy Callahan

This sweet smile...
that's about all I can write
Think of her family and friends tonight

Monday, November 23, 2009

My Chilis

How could I ever stay mad or angry looking at these four eyes? How could any hurt in this world touch me, knowing that these two monkeys are on my side, if there is a side, in this world.
These two are the greatest thing I will EVER do.
They love me with all my flaws and I am humbled everytime I hear-Mommy, I love you
Because honestly, sometimes I think WHY? I am not the baking, crafty, PTA kind of mom. I am the yelling, hurried, frazzled kind of mom. I am the diseased mom. Amputated due to cancer. I am the mom that cries a lot for no apparent reason. I am the mom that drinks wine while cooking dinner because I am relieved that the end of day is nearing.
Yet these two love me. Sometimes they think I am funny. They even tell me I look pretty.
I am incredibly lucky to of birthed these two creatures.

Peace Out

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Lost and Found

As usual, I have been thinking and as usual, it will probably get me a)in trouble or b)no where...
I have been thinking about the lost and found.
What I have lost and what I have found.

my mind

dust bunnies
my fav hat

I could actually both lists shousl and could be the same. So does that make me lost? Or found? Hell I have no idea...

Peace Out

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Done Gone and Did It!!

Yep, yup, yeppers, yes indeed!
I have booked my ticket to Thailand for the early part of 2010. I am still stunned and numb about the actual purchase and confirmation of my flight. That will soon fade into pure excitement.
I cannot describe the thrill of this adventure for me.
I need to wrap my mind around it more, but will keep posting info as it nears!
I am going alone. No set agenda. Lots of reading material. An open mind. An ipod full of music. A passport. A wing and a prayer. I seriously have tears in my eyes thinking about it!

Peace out!

Monday, November 02, 2009

The CRAP I Have Written on Facebook

www.boobalicious-trixila.blogspot.com all you need to know

I saw this on someone else's facebook-www.freerice.com. Check it out!

Melissa Skankbomb is my stripper name. But I have to say I may change it in the future.

can i get a hoot hoot?

we hooted and hollared ya'll!

is keeping the moves phunky fresh

ok enough already...can you just let it gooooooooooooooooo

jalapeno ranch dip is on my mind

ohhhhhh margarittaville!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don't cha wish your margarita was cold like mine? dontcha?

Everybody's looking for something Some of them want to use you Some of them want to get used by you Some of them want to abuse you Some of them want to be abused

time wounds all heels

thinks unloading the dishwasher is an a-hole job!

last two weeks before school starts. ready, set ,go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel like i am waiting....

I'll have a cup of tea and tell you of my dreaming, dreaming is free

-hate will eat you alive...mark my words

i have a really big deck, wanna see it?

i think i'm going to paint my ivory tower red

last week till school starts. need to sleep in everyday this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mmmmmm 9:00 and rollin out of bed

four little monkeys in a bed....

awwww you look like you need a hug

is missin my chillis today

just fired up my first "fall" scented candle of the season. a little early but i just couldn't resist!

my chillis come home tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cherry bomb red wallet=♥

first day of second grade!!!! woot woot

everybody needs a new tau tau

mmmmmmm cheese puffs!

NO ONE should wear black socks with shorts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thinkin bout zebras

chapstick does a lip good

you've got to change your evil ways...baby

i love diet coke...ok there i said it!

yes, it hurts every damn day

i lurve new shampooooooooop!

what did i do now?!

11 pupies! eleven!!! Xl holy puppy breath!

An even dozen!!!!! 12!!!! Xll

puppy palooooza!!!!!!!!!!!! they are so sinkin' cute!

has clouds in her coffee

says you don't have to live like a refugee

wyatt's first day of ballet!!!!!

i do crossword puzzles in INK...cuz that's how I roll!

i stumble into town, just like a sacred cow...

drinkin coffee, listening to the beattles-let it be- taking a moment before my whackass day starts

why is is stupid hot in september?

and another one's gone and another one's gone, another one bites the dust

Go ahead make my chardonnay

the puppies are opening their eyes!!! hello world!

i've got a black belt in crazy!

Good is good and bad is bad You don't know which one you had

29 fo evvvvvvvvvah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

let your haters be your motivators!

It's hard to see your way out When you live in a house in a house Cause you don't realize That the windows were open the whole time.

i don't care if monday's blue

just ordered a kindle2!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woot woot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

is riding shotgun down the avalanch.

It's official...... Hellanor On Wheels. Thank you all for your considerate, kind and touching(james) input on my roller girl names. Hellanor On Wheels will reign fo evah!

trixendle's kindle!!!!!!!!!!!!!! has arrived

keepin it high and tight today

i cannot find my favorite hat!!!!!!!!!!!

don't stand so close to me

one won't talk and the other doesn't listen. ugggggggggggggggggggg

i'm feelin like i should say sumpin nice today...it is tequila tuesday after all :)

the evening just went down the drain

great minds drink a like

meet me in istanbul in 24 hours!

why do i feel like i have the job of two wives, yet i am NOT married?

Doesnt mean that much to me To mean that much to you.

push is coming to shove and i'm ready to shove

"That which we manifest is before us; we are the creators of our own destiny. Be it through intention or ignorance, our successes and our failures have been brought on by none other than ourselves" — Garth Stein (The Art of Racing in the Rain)

learn to bend before you break

What a load of crap huh? Yet I keep on crack bookin!

Peace Out

Monday, October 19, 2009


If you think you know me the least little bit or a lot, you know why this picture gives me the greatest of joy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shockerkahn, I'm in lurve wichyou!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace Out

Thursday, October 15, 2009


Sometimes I get so tired,
Just trying to find a place,
To lay my head,
I look up to the sky,
I feel the warmest light comfort me,
I've seen the great heights,
Reminding me... that I'm alive,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there's something more,
Than what we're living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shores,
I know there's something,
I know there's something more.
I think we're all afraid,
That we might be alone,
Alone down here,
We all want to have some faith,
At least that's true in my case,
To just believe,
I've seen the great height,
Reminding me... that I'm alive,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there's something more,
Than what we're living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there's something,
This world may crumble,
Into the ocean,
It could all end tonight,
I undermined you,
Then tried to find you,
My only source of light,
There breathing,
I am alive,
I am,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna waste another day or night,
I know there's something more,
Than what we're living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know that I'm alive,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna waste another day,
Or night,
I know there's something more,
Than what we're living for,
I see it in the stars,
I feel it on the shore,
I know there's something more.

-tyrone wells

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

My Little Pumkin

Wyatt and I at the pumpkin patch.
I could nibble on this little honey all day long!
We made it through the impending weather and picked out some awesome pumpkins to bring home. We jumped in a hay maze and rode the train. A perfect fall day with my perfect date.


Happy Anniversary

Today my friend Patty and I took our kiddos on the annual pumpkin patch field trip that we have done every year for the last six years.

We met in the fall of 2003 at a community center play area. You know the kind, where zombie eyed moms go as soon as they can every weekday morning cuz there is no where else to go until nap time. Our oldest girls were playing together and we struck up the boring conversation of, how old is your child? does she sleep through the night? how horrible was your labor? blah blah blah...
We exchanged numbers and went on our merry ways.
Then, she actually called me! We decided to go to a pumpkin patch with one year olds in tow. And so it began...
I do not really like to be around other moms. If you know me, you know how true this is. I don't really talk to folks at pre school or at elementary pick up. Not because I am shy, because I don't want to. Patty covers this territory for me. While in the background I make snarky remarks about the other moms.
So we like to say that we have been dating for six years this month.
Patty knew me post 1st cancer and pre 2nd cancer. We have had laughs and tears. We were pregnant at the same time with our second children. As in any relationship, we have had trying times. Quiet times. Good times. Loud times. Thick and thin. I am talking about our waist lines here.
We love to eat Mexican food and read. She has huge boobs I have none. She's tall, I am short. She's skinny, I am....thick.
We've seen joy and heartache. Terrible terrible heartache.
So Happy Anniversary lady! I gots you on my mind!

Peace Out

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Beginners Luck

I never play poker. Honestly I don't even know how. Actually I really don't like card games.
So this weekend when I ended up playing poker and drinking a ton of beer, I won a twenty spot!!!
Seriously, beginners luck. Just like someone who says they have never played golf and wins a tournament. I was blind in one eye and couldn't see out the other with my beer goggles on and here in this picture you see my winnings and all my good luck charms. Yep that's an orange stapler that I became attached to for some reason. It kept me in the game!!!
Let it be said that I do not ever plan on playing again. But I do plan on continuing to drink beer and carry that stapler around in my purse from now on!

Peace Out
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Monday, September 21, 2009

Put on Your Ballet Shoes

Sweet Wyatt...
Gonna be a soccerina. That is not a typo...
She can't quite pick between soccer and ballet so this fall she is doing both.
I'm burnin the rubber off my tires lately trying to get everyone where they need to be when they need to be there.
Sometimes I think it would be easier to throw my laundry basket in the back of my car and do my laundry by a stream with a rock while one or both of my children do some kind of activity.

Peace Out

There Was a Time

There was a time I really thought I would see you again. It's just not true and I have to move on.
So I say this will all my heart,
I miss you. I'm sorry. I would change it all in an instant.
I swear I dream about it every week. The outcome always happy and peaceful. That dream will never be a reality.

I dreamed a dream in time gone by

When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

Friday, September 11, 2009

First Day of Second Grade

My sweet pickle Elliot began second grade!!!!!
She's two weeks into it and loves it. Her teacher is FANTASTIC!
Where has the time gone when I could look down and see her nursing while trying to grab at my hair?

Love you rock star!!

Cheaper by the Dozen

Our sweet mamma dog had TWELVE puppies yesterday. They are sleeping in a puppy pile this morning, snuggling with their mamma.
I went and got Elliot and her BFF out of school early so they could see the birth. It was really amazing.
So now we have 13 dogs in our house. It's gonna be crazy here for a while. We had no idea she was going have so many!
There is something universal about seeing a live birth. It strips away all the woes of your world when you see life come alive right before you.

Peace Out

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Righters Block

I have not really been able to blog lately. It was a hard summer.
I have lost friends through my own doings and through death.
I ask myself this question:
Do I want to be right or do I want to be happy? Damn, that can be hard to answer for me sometimes. Sometimes I want to rage against the machine and prove my point. Sometimes I actually get tired of my crusade and just want peace and happiness. Love, good gawd, we all want love! We all want to be accepted for the choices we make.
I watched a man be buried this week. A bugle played taps. I twice widowed woman cried. A family gathered together in honor. It was haunting.
I asked myself this question:
Do I want to be right or do I want to be happy?
I want to be happy. I want you to be happy.
Life is so short. I can hardly bare the thought of not living the fairy tale.

Peace Out

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Happy Birthday Rock Star

My sweet Elliot turned 7 this month. I cannot believe it! I have a 2nd grader!
If you have never met my girl Elliot let me tell you about her...
She is funny and loves to swim. She LOVES pickle flavored potato chips. She's skinny and lanky like I was as a kid. She's loyal and true. She's sweet like candy.
Happy Birthday my sweet girl!

I love you,

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The loss of Hope

Losing hope is like a death of sorts. Hope can be your best friend, it can be the carrot dangling in front of you that things will get better.
Hope can leave us in an instance. Sometimes by an accident or a poor choice.
When it's gone there can be days, months, years, when you are unsure it will ever return.
Hope is missed on many levels and can be a weight that is so heavy you can barely raise your head.
With no hope, it can be lonely.
Whatever the cause or reason, self inflicted, accidental, or on purpose, just know that hope wants to be in your life. Sometimes it all just feels so.....hopeless

Peace Out

Monday, May 18, 2009

Would You

The sad thing is some days I am all four...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

When Blog Worlds Collide

This weekend two of my favorite blogs I read collided. One of the bloggers traveled to the other ones home in another state to hang out for the weekend. I am so envious of this!
If you are an avid blog reader, there are times you feel as though you know someone that you have never met. It sounds a bit stalkerish now that I read that last sentence.
So I keep reading about what the are doing and wondering about how much fun the are having...

Peace Out

Sunday, May 10, 2009

New Blog!

I started a new blog!
I am workin out the kinks though...

Check it out

Feedback greatly welcome!!!!

Peace Out

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Push It

How far would/do you push yourself? To the brink of self ruin. To soaring heights never before reached?
What would you do to attain your goal?
What is your goal?
A clean house?
A marathon?
Perfect children?
Religious piety?
Weight loss?
Good health?
Whatever it is that you covet, what would you do to get it?
I had this friend that would never give up. She never ever ever gave up. Until the very end, she never gave up. She pushed herself, in her weakened state, harder than I have ever seen anyone in my life. She was a giant in heart. Today I think back about her and smile knowing that she was fucking insane, in the best way that one can be out of their mind. Lord love that girl...
So today as I am sick with a pitiful cold, I have yet to sit down. And I think to myself, when is it enough. When do you just say to hell with it all and let peace wash over you. Damn the laundry! Damn the dishes! Damn the homework! Damn it all!
Just be peace.

Every now and then, I get down to the end of a day,
Ill have to stop, ask myself, whatve I done?
It just seems so useless to have to work so hard,
And nothin ever really seem to come from it
- Tom Petty
Damn the Torpedos

Monday, April 20, 2009

When Do You Feel Like a Good Parent?

When is the time you think to yourself....I AM A GOOD PARENT?
Is it when all the laundry is done?
Is it when your kid gets good grades or uses good manners?
Parenting is so complicated. There's so many trial and errors. So many tears and smiles. Sometimes I honestly feel like an impostor trying to act like a mom. Who thought it would be a good idea for me to raise children?
Sometimes I am not a good mom, but I am a fun mom.
Sometimes I am not a nice mom, but I am a good mom.
It's a balancing act everyday.
I love my children more than air. I hope everyday with all my heart that I do right by them.

Peace Out

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Secret Garden

Today it was actually sunny here. Ahhhhh could spring be here?
This year, for the first time of my life I am going to plant a garden with my girls. That is a first for me.
I have an acre of land. Cleaning that up every spring is not a first. I do it every year.
While I was outside today, I took a moment to take in everything. The smell of dirt. Hearing my wind chimes. I listened to the wind going through the trees. I even saw a bald eagle today in my back yard.
My girls were playing outside while I readied my little plot of land.
I can rake leaves like a mofo, as for an garden that produces veggies, I have no idea how that's all going to go. Wish me luck.
I will tell you this, I have my little plants started and it's supposed to be nice here the better part of this week. Spring in the North West rawks!!

Peace Out

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

The Tooth is Out There

Yesterday was the last day I will ever see my six year old with all her baby teeth. Good lawd, I can remember the day I say her first tooth push through said the same thing to myself about her gummy little smile.
Elliot lost her first tooth this week. Her daddy pulled it for her. I am not the tooth person in our house.
Congrats Elliot! You were way braver than I ever was at getting your tooth pulled.
I love you!

Saturday, March 07, 2009

We've All Got Problems, What the Hell Is Yours?

Seriously, who has the perfect life? Or should I say the life that perfectly suits them?
We all have issues.
I was walking the isles of Target the other day and I hear the woman on her cell phone talking about her teenage daughter being pregnant. yes, I was eavesdropping :)
She was an attractive woman, in her 40's I would guess. Dressed rather nice. Yet, she was going on and on about her kid being knocked up. My first smug thought was, well, at least it isn't me, but then again my oldest is only six...it could be me someday.
So then I was thinking to myself, we have issues. My big glaring one is cancer, but if you are not one of my fans, I am sure you could come up with many others for me.
Folks have issues with:
My point is, no one has the perfect life I guess. Money can't buy it either.
This is just something I have been thinking about lately.

Peace Out

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Suck It FaceBook

Dear Facebook,
You acted like you were soooo into me. Messages from afar. Folks wanting to hear my story. Friends in the triple digits. It was everything I dreamed of...
Now the honeymoon is over. I ignored the signs at first. I thought you loved my attention. I felt that I really made you happy when I logged in. But the bloom is off the rose and I and starting to notice you don't have that much to say to me anymore. I try and get more friends to make you happy, but honestly I don't think anything will make you happy right now.
As I have always done, I try to be dazzling and write the funniest of comments to make you feel special. I am always sacrificing myself for the love of others.
NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love myself more at this stage of my life. I have way too much confidence to look for approval and affection from you. I know that you are just not into me.

Peace Out

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Driving at 1am

Last night I went out with a group of people for dinner and then to a friends to drink some wine. Our common bond was an amazing woman who recently passed away. We drank 11 yr old wine from Italy in her honor. It was a bottle that was saved for a special occasion in her life and last night was it. The occasion was her life.
We told stories and looked at pictures. We watched family movies of her. At some points it was surreal. Watching her on the TV screen laughing as she always did.
It seems that saying good bye can take a very long time. I never knew this. She is/was so lovely.
This world, my world, her family's world, her friend's world will never be the same without her in it. Yet when she was in it she rocked it.
Damn I miss her.
I will never be the same.

Pay my respects to grace and virtue,
Send my condolences to good.
Give my regards to soul and romance,
They always did the best they could.
And so long to devotion,
You taught my everything I know.
Wave goodbye, Wish me well.

You've gotta let me go.
-The Killers

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

My Mouth

Just to let you know, I do not have to watch my mouth.
If you don't like my blog then don't fucking read it.
I can be as rude as I like on here. So do not say I need to watch my mouth.
And if you do need to say anything...Say it to my face.

Peace Out

Monday, January 19, 2009

Dear K

Dear K,
I miss you everyday. Today would have been your 36th birthday. I know you would of had a great party. I know we would have done shots and sang badly.
I think about you all the time.
When I met you two years ago, I knew we both had that wonderful dark side. The humor that few others understand.
I watched you grow a baby inside of you, as you went through chemo.
I met that sweet baby and stood with you in a circle as you honored her life with a baptism.
I walk many many miles and laughed my ass off on TWO Breast Cancer 3Day Walks.
I did shots with you.
I broke bread with you.
I cried with you when you felt scared and so did I.
I witnessed your final walk to a more peaceful place.
I am just one of many who feel honored to have known you.
I have peace knowing that you are in a place where you a whole again. I know you have no more pain and anguish.
Imissyou. Imissyou. Imissyou.
I'll see you on the flip side my friend.


Monday, January 05, 2009

A Place In My Heart

You belong among the wildflowers
You belong in a boat out at sea
Sail away, kill off the hours
You belong somewhere you feel free

Run away, find you a lover
Go away somewhere all bright and new
I have seen no other
Who compares with you

You belong among the wildflowers
You belong in a boat out at sea
You belong with your love on your arm
You belong somewhere you feel free

Run away, go find a lover
Run away, let your heart be your guide
You deserve the deepest of cover
You belong in that home by and by

You belong among the wildflowers
You belong somewhere close to me
Far away from your trouble and worries
You belong somewhere you feel free
You belong somewhere you feel free