i have a hard time believing i bothered anyone but you. silly girl.
i have to wonder what you heard in the beautiful speech that was given. i heard it loud and clear so here goes... have a great life. find peace happiness and joy.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Tell me the tooth
Peace Out
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Friday, September 03, 2010
What I'm Diggin Right Now
I was thinking today, as I went to Target for the ten millionth time this month (yup, it's September 3rd) of all the products in this world that make MY life better, and sometimes yours too.
So I thought, I'm gonna write down all my favs today. As if you care....
Swiffer lavender scented refills
Swiffer dust and shine with febreze
Aveda ANYTHING
My Canon camera
Clean laundry smells
Fall and Halloween coming right around the corner
The 15th anniversay of my 29th bday this month
A new word game on my Kindle
Diet Coke
Resolve carpet cleaner
Food Truck Wars on the food channel
Survivor starting next week
Seeing my chilis excited about school
Football season
Coors Lite
A new walking partner
A new very part time job
Dyson vacuum cleaner
My house being clean with no one home to mess it up
Neutrogena face scrub
Cute hair bobs with flowers on them
I would like to add here that I am by no means getting paid by these products, that is not my new part time job. Also, some of the things on the list are givens but I like to put it out there anyway.
Peace Out
So I thought, I'm gonna write down all my favs today. As if you care....
Swiffer lavender scented refills
Swiffer dust and shine with febreze
Aveda ANYTHING
My Canon camera
Clean laundry smells
Fall and Halloween coming right around the corner
The 15th anniversay of my 29th bday this month
A new word game on my Kindle
Diet Coke
Resolve carpet cleaner
Food Truck Wars on the food channel
Survivor starting next week
Seeing my chilis excited about school
Football season
Coors Lite
A new walking partner
A new very part time job
Dyson vacuum cleaner
My house being clean with no one home to mess it up
Neutrogena face scrub
Cute hair bobs with flowers on them
I would like to add here that I am by no means getting paid by these products, that is not my new part time job. Also, some of the things on the list are givens but I like to put it out there anyway.
Peace Out
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
First Day of Kindergarten
Have you ever seen a star fall from the sky? One the shines so bright that it eclipses your entire heart?That's what happened to me when this little gem came into my life. Our first day together she snuggled in under my arm. That is still her favorite sleeping spot. She was a smiley baby, and still is to this day.
She started Kindergarten today. I watched her board the bus with her big sister. It was as if she'd been doing it for years. She told me that I would be ok today. She said maybe I could take a nap since I had no kids in the house today.
She breaks my heart in the very best way possible. She is snuggly and juicy. She is like a piece of glitter. Completely different from her sister...you now her every thought and feeling.
I have no idea how I got so blessed.
She tells me all the time that she will never leave me and will live with me forever. I keep trying to get that in writing but, she's only 5 and doesn't know how to spell that good. I hope she always feels that way!
Happy first day of Kindergarten WyWy!
I love you more than air!
Mommy
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
First Day of 3rd Grade
Look at her. She takes my breath away. All snaggled toothed as only an 8 year old can be. She's getting on a bus that is driving her to a place that will keep her all day. I birthed this child. She came out of my body. I grew that hair, those hazel eyes, inside of myself. And now I am supposed to just watch her leave me for hours at a time. Out of my sight but never out of my mind. All day I yearn to see her smile. I wonder how she's doing, if she's happy. It's the plight of a mother is it not? Watching them grow and spread their wings.Look at her. She's so stinkin happy and proud. Off to 3rd grade to see her friends. They talk of things I'll never know about. It used to be that I knew her every sound and movement. Now she has a life that sometimes will seem foreign to me.
I hugged her close to me when I picked her up from school. We caught each others eyes all the way down a long hall and we both raised a hand to wave. My baby, coming back into my fold. Me, a proud mamma, not letting her see my tears of happiness.
Happy first day of 3rd grade Elliot!
I love you more than air,
Mommy
Monday, August 23, 2010
Wackadoooooo
I cut my hair recently. While most folks cut their hair every 7 weeks or so, I usually do not. After losing all my hair during chemo, I am very skidish if scissors get near me.When it was growing back I did enjoy a fro for the first time of my life. My hair is usually very straight and it grew back curly! Ahhhh the joy of curly hair. Then I started getting it cut and the curl was gone. DAMMIT!
After a few cuts I was on a mission to grow out my hair. Longgggggggg.
But you know what? I just kept putting it up in a pony tail. What the hell good is that? Day after day I would pile it on top of my head and go about my biznazz.
Until a couple of weeks ago...
I have been going to a new hair stylist and told her to talk me off the ledge I was about to jump off. The ledge of- cut all this shit off. She said no way would she do that, we were gonna high dive off the mo fo and cut it OFF!
And we did, and I love it!
So thank you Carolann for the hair therapy.
Peace Out
Sunday, August 22, 2010
I forget......
I forget what I was going to call this blog but I do remember what it is about.
First and foremost...Terry you were dead wrong about the Billy Jean King thing. I was right and I will remind you of that for eternity.
I think I was going to tell you what an asshole you are etc etc....but I forget.
The bottom line is KG is a rock star and you should bow down each and every day ;)
Oh yea, I was right!
Peace Out
First and foremost...Terry you were dead wrong about the Billy Jean King thing. I was right and I will remind you of that for eternity.
I think I was going to tell you what an asshole you are etc etc....but I forget.
The bottom line is KG is a rock star and you should bow down each and every day ;)
Oh yea, I was right!
Peace Out
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
An Ass Kickin'
Invictus
OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
-William Ernest Henley
Friday, July 23, 2010
Catch and Release
Should I go left? Should I go right? Forward?
Those are easy questions. I am an adult. At least that's what the calendar says.
But my children, well, the are children. I have spent all the years of theirs lives making choices for them and about them. Today I hit a brick wall...
My oldest turned eight this month. She has eight years of opinions and wants and wishes. She expresses them very well and not always the way I would like her to, as in whining.
Today was different. I suddenly realized that she needed to make a choice without me. I wanted her to do one thing, she wanted to do something else. For the first time in all these years I was upset, but in a more hurt feelings emotional way. I looked at her and said, ok it's your choice. She knew I was very sad and told me that she's not happy if I'm not happy, which is exactly how I feel about her. I told her that in her life we would both make choices that neither one of us agreed with. We would have to be accepting of this.
Then in my head I thought, HOLY SHIT, I AM A MOM!!!!!!!
I am a full fledged mutha of a mom!
I soooooooo wanted her to make MY choice, but I needed her to have the full impact of making her own. The good and the bad.
Through the years, I have to allow my children to do this. There will be millions of times I will have to grin and bare it. I will bite my tongue and let them succeed AND fall on their faces. Because that's what you're supposed to do in my book. I will be the soft place to land when the fall is steep. I will be the first and loudest to cheer at the goals and triumphs.
I will catch them when they fall and release them when they need to run. No matter if it hurts or if my joy shines like the sun.
Who doesn't know what I'm talking about
Who's never left home, who's never struck out
To find a dream and a life of their own
A place in the clouds, a foundation of stone
Many precede and many will follow
A young girl's dream no longer hollow
It takes the shape of a place out west
But what it holds for her, she hasn't yet guessed
She needs wide open spaces
Room to make her big mistakes
She needs new faces
She knows the high stakes
She traveled this road as a child
Wide eyed and grinning, she never tired
But now she won't be coming back with the rest
If these are life's lessons, she'll take this test
She knows the high stakes
As her folks drive away, her dad yells, "Check the oil!"
Mom stares out the window and says, "I'm leaving my girl"
She said, "It didn't seem like that long ago"
When she stood there and let her own folks know
She knows the highest stakes
Wide Open Spaces-The Dixie Chicks
Those are easy questions. I am an adult. At least that's what the calendar says.
But my children, well, the are children. I have spent all the years of theirs lives making choices for them and about them. Today I hit a brick wall...
My oldest turned eight this month. She has eight years of opinions and wants and wishes. She expresses them very well and not always the way I would like her to, as in whining.
Today was different. I suddenly realized that she needed to make a choice without me. I wanted her to do one thing, she wanted to do something else. For the first time in all these years I was upset, but in a more hurt feelings emotional way. I looked at her and said, ok it's your choice. She knew I was very sad and told me that she's not happy if I'm not happy, which is exactly how I feel about her. I told her that in her life we would both make choices that neither one of us agreed with. We would have to be accepting of this.
Then in my head I thought, HOLY SHIT, I AM A MOM!!!!!!!
I am a full fledged mutha of a mom!
I soooooooo wanted her to make MY choice, but I needed her to have the full impact of making her own. The good and the bad.
Through the years, I have to allow my children to do this. There will be millions of times I will have to grin and bare it. I will bite my tongue and let them succeed AND fall on their faces. Because that's what you're supposed to do in my book. I will be the soft place to land when the fall is steep. I will be the first and loudest to cheer at the goals and triumphs.
I will catch them when they fall and release them when they need to run. No matter if it hurts or if my joy shines like the sun.
Who doesn't know what I'm talking about
Who's never left home, who's never struck out
To find a dream and a life of their own
A place in the clouds, a foundation of stone
Many precede and many will follow
A young girl's dream no longer hollow
It takes the shape of a place out west
But what it holds for her, she hasn't yet guessed
She needs wide open spaces
Room to make her big mistakes
She needs new faces
She knows the high stakes
She traveled this road as a child
Wide eyed and grinning, she never tired
But now she won't be coming back with the rest
If these are life's lessons, she'll take this test
She knows the high stakes
As her folks drive away, her dad yells, "Check the oil!"
Mom stares out the window and says, "I'm leaving my girl"
She said, "It didn't seem like that long ago"
When she stood there and let her own folks know
She knows the highest stakes
Wide Open Spaces-The Dixie Chicks
Coolest Baby Clothes Evah!
I stumbled upon a supa cute store today with one of a kind local handmade baby goods!
It's here in my home town Issaquah in Gilman Village AND they have a website!
www.xmarksthetot.com
ch-ch-check it out!
Peace Out
It's here in my home town Issaquah in Gilman Village AND they have a website!
www.xmarksthetot.com
ch-ch-check it out!
Peace Out
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Tempest in a Teapot
This past weekend I experienced some very interesting things and now I am hoppin mad!!!!!!!!!!!
I understand that everyone wants to make money. I also understand the sometimes desperate times call for desperate measures. That's why someone would sell something that is "supposed" to cure some nasty stuff that is here on earth.
The unfortunate thing is, people will believe the lies that these tiered money making schemes spew out. Sometimes the people that actually sell this crap, believe it.
Let's be clear about two things here:
No one gets rich on these MLM's EXCEPT the folks at the very very top.
Cancer nor Leukemia have been cured by any fruit or vitamin.
How cruel, how wrong, it is to tell some, anyone that what they are selling can cure such an asshole of a disease. If that did work, wouldn't we ALL be "drinking the koolaide?" How dare somehow who is so clearly unqualified, give false hope to someone who is scared out of their mind.
Also, if ANY thing in this world could make us rich, wouldn't we all be selling it? Wouldn't we all be rich?
At this point I am disgusted. THERE IS NO CURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If there was, no one would lose an daughter, mother, friend, aunt, dad, brother, wife, husband....
There are so many prayers, hopes, and dreams, for a cure. It's a cruel lie to say you have one to line your pockets.
Peace Out
I understand that everyone wants to make money. I also understand the sometimes desperate times call for desperate measures. That's why someone would sell something that is "supposed" to cure some nasty stuff that is here on earth.
The unfortunate thing is, people will believe the lies that these tiered money making schemes spew out. Sometimes the people that actually sell this crap, believe it.
Let's be clear about two things here:
No one gets rich on these MLM's EXCEPT the folks at the very very top.
Cancer nor Leukemia have been cured by any fruit or vitamin.
How cruel, how wrong, it is to tell some, anyone that what they are selling can cure such an asshole of a disease. If that did work, wouldn't we ALL be "drinking the koolaide?" How dare somehow who is so clearly unqualified, give false hope to someone who is scared out of their mind.
Also, if ANY thing in this world could make us rich, wouldn't we all be selling it? Wouldn't we all be rich?
At this point I am disgusted. THERE IS NO CURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If there was, no one would lose an daughter, mother, friend, aunt, dad, brother, wife, husband....
There are so many prayers, hopes, and dreams, for a cure. It's a cruel lie to say you have one to line your pockets.
Peace Out
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Eight is Great!
My sweet Elliot is turning eight. And wouldn't you know it, she went and lost a tooth to celebrate. This girl makes me so proud. She is kind and loyal. She's so so sweeeeeeet. She will be in third grade this fall! I am amazed at how quickly time has flown by. Being pregnant with her changed me. It was not the easiest of times, yet here we are, eight years later. When I became pregnant I had just finished my first battle with breast cancer. Elliot was a sign of hope. I love you my big girl, more than air... Peace Out
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Wednesday, July 07, 2010
Swimmin Hole
Summer is finally here in the Seattle area! Yes I know we get a bad wrap around here about all the rain, but have you ever been up here in the summer? It's quite easily the most beautiful place that I want to be. Today I have three sun drenched little girls giggling in the water at a local creek. The water is clear and cool. There's no one else around. Just the sun and the sound of a flowing creek. Yesterday I took my girls to the local water park. I like to say it is the land of wife beater t shirts, camel toe, and muffin tops. Its crowded with teenagers who dress like pole dancers. My kids don't really notice all that. All they know is water and fun is everywhere. I prefer this quiet swimmin hole to all that, but honestly kids don't care. They want school to be out and to get wet. It's a happy day when life is this simple! Peace Out
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Tuesday, July 06, 2010
Happy Birthday
Today Frida Kahlo would have been 103.You know when folks ask that question: Who are the people you would have at a dinner party? First on my list would be Frida.
I wrote about Frida her once before. Boobalicious: I Heart Frida Khalo
When I think about trying to be the person I need to be, I think of her.
When I feel weak and want to give up, I think of her.
When I have pain I do not think I will conquer, I think of her.
Peace Out
Monday, July 05, 2010
Happy 4th!
A really simple day...Walked in a parade
Cooked a lot of food
Had a birthday celebration
Ate a lot of food
Drank a few beers
Had a few jello shots
Shot off fireworks
Had fun with some friends.
Peace Out
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Last night I went and saw Anthony Bourdain speak here in Seattle where I live.
He is dark, funny, jaded, and sarcastic...just like I like!
He is a chef and traveler. He is a lover of all things pork.
My friend Rose went with me and we met up with Chad, my friend Shannon's husband. I had such a good time. I hope they did too!
He is the main reason for my trip to Thailand and some of the place that I visited while I was there. And I told him so!
After his talk, he signed his latest book. I leaned in very close to get a whiff of him while he signed my book. I breathed in deep and what I found was the most intoxicating aroma of beer and pork. Lawd....you can take me now!
Peace Out
Friday, June 11, 2010
Goody Proctor and the Gang
Have you read The Crucible? Do you know much about the Salem Witch Trials?
I ask this because my book club, yes book club, how Oprah of me, read a book last month that dealt with this particular time period. At our meeting, while discussing the book, the conversation turned to a question if witchcraft was really involved or if it was a case of mob mentality.
I personally lean towards the latter. Because really....haven't we all been apart of gossip? Whether it be the gossiper or gossiped? I know I have. I know I will be again.
The thing that strikes me about the Witch Trials is the uneducated-ignorant environment of it all. Women were killed. Some children too. I don't believe that any spells were going on. I think that herbs and such were being put together that helped people in some explicable way. I think that women were doing this because they wanted to help people, being the caregiviers. Some were midwives that would be blamed if children died at birth. The accusers stood behind religion as a weapon to kill those who did things they didn't understand. There was no FDA, TV, or internet then. Some took it upon themselves to the judge, jury, and executioner.
And still today I think things like this happen. When a teenager, a mere child, kills herself because of being bullied. She wasn't burned at the stake. She saved her tormentors that task. She offed herself.
High school is a witch trial, PTA is a witch trial, any situation were two can gang up on one can become a witch trial.
Who have you left swinging in the wind lately? Or are you the one swinging?
Peace Out
I ask this because my book club, yes book club, how Oprah of me, read a book last month that dealt with this particular time period. At our meeting, while discussing the book, the conversation turned to a question if witchcraft was really involved or if it was a case of mob mentality.
I personally lean towards the latter. Because really....haven't we all been apart of gossip? Whether it be the gossiper or gossiped? I know I have. I know I will be again.
The thing that strikes me about the Witch Trials is the uneducated-ignorant environment of it all. Women were killed. Some children too. I don't believe that any spells were going on. I think that herbs and such were being put together that helped people in some explicable way. I think that women were doing this because they wanted to help people, being the caregiviers. Some were midwives that would be blamed if children died at birth. The accusers stood behind religion as a weapon to kill those who did things they didn't understand. There was no FDA, TV, or internet then. Some took it upon themselves to the judge, jury, and executioner.
And still today I think things like this happen. When a teenager, a mere child, kills herself because of being bullied. She wasn't burned at the stake. She saved her tormentors that task. She offed herself.
High school is a witch trial, PTA is a witch trial, any situation were two can gang up on one can become a witch trial.
Who have you left swinging in the wind lately? Or are you the one swinging?
Peace Out
Friday, May 14, 2010
Travel Dazzle
I am home from another trip. This time Mexico. I think I am done for 2010, but I am thinking of 2011 already!
It has taken me since March to truly digest Thailand. I learned so much. I had time to stand or should I sit still for a long time.
When I came home it took me a week to go into my local grocery store, and when I did I started to cry. Mostly because the was SO MUCH STUFF!!! After being in a place that is so poor, yet so happy with what they have, I felt like a jerk walking into a place where I could grab anything I wanted off the a shelf AND have the money to pay for it.
I am sure I am not the first or last to feel this way, but it was my first time experiencing it and it swept me off my feet.
Thailand is a country of 95% Buddhists and it shows! Although since I have left, they have had some major marches and civil unrest, I would have to say they are peace-lovers. It has given me cause to think about Buddhism and read about it more as of late.
As for Mexico....
the land of eat and drink! Sunshine and sand. I swear my children's hair still smells like chlorine!
At this point I am happy to be in my home. Summer is approaching. I love having the girls home with me all day.
I will actually have a deck to sit out on this summer! Woot Woot!
Wyatt will be in kindergarten in September and Elliot will be in 3rd grade.
My feet will stay on American soil until 2011. I am thinking Turkey!!!!
Peace Out
Maria
It has taken me since March to truly digest Thailand. I learned so much. I had time to stand or should I sit still for a long time.
When I came home it took me a week to go into my local grocery store, and when I did I started to cry. Mostly because the was SO MUCH STUFF!!! After being in a place that is so poor, yet so happy with what they have, I felt like a jerk walking into a place where I could grab anything I wanted off the a shelf AND have the money to pay for it.
I am sure I am not the first or last to feel this way, but it was my first time experiencing it and it swept me off my feet.
Thailand is a country of 95% Buddhists and it shows! Although since I have left, they have had some major marches and civil unrest, I would have to say they are peace-lovers. It has given me cause to think about Buddhism and read about it more as of late.
As for Mexico....
the land of eat and drink! Sunshine and sand. I swear my children's hair still smells like chlorine!
At this point I am happy to be in my home. Summer is approaching. I love having the girls home with me all day.
I will actually have a deck to sit out on this summer! Woot Woot!
Wyatt will be in kindergarten in September and Elliot will be in 3rd grade.
My feet will stay on American soil until 2011. I am thinking Turkey!!!!
Peace Out
Maria
Friday, April 23, 2010
Birthday Princess
Happy 3rd birthday sweet girl!
You are a fiery red headed daredevil!
I cannot believe you are already three.Time flies huh?
Happy Birthday
Ria
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Kill Your TV
This week at my 2nd graders school, is Turn Off Your TV week.
The hell you say!
I have said many times, and will say many more, the greatest luxury in my life is watching TV in bed. It's my opinion and I'm sticking to it!
I love love love my TV. I love watching the Travel Channel and Food Network more than anything else.
No one in the house is watching TV this week. HHHEEEELLLLPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's not that we watch that much really. The girls are in school, A is working and I am cleaning or doing something during the day. Also, my house is a split level and there is no TV in the common area of my upstairs. The big screen is downstairs and I am never down there during day light hours unless I am doing laundry. With that said, I watch absolutely no until about 7 in the evening. I do not watch the news. I didn't even know about the whole volcanic ash/airline crisis in Europe until about 5 days after it happened.
But for some reason, when you tell someone the can't do something, that's ALL THEY WANT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hell, even when I was in Thailand, I watched Thai news in bed even though I did not know one word being said!
My kids only watch movies that we start for them, Finnius and Pherb, or the Discovery Channel. I am not that worried that they are addicts. They are never ever ever ever ever going to watch crap like Hannah Montanna, or The Suite Life, where kids act like assholes and talk to adults like the are equals. Kids are sassy enough without giving them the idea that they can talk like that.
Nothing much has changed from this TV-less week. Maybe a little more itunes, but Elton John never made a kid a serial killer...did he?
Peace Out
The hell you say!
I have said many times, and will say many more, the greatest luxury in my life is watching TV in bed. It's my opinion and I'm sticking to it!
I love love love my TV. I love watching the Travel Channel and Food Network more than anything else.
No one in the house is watching TV this week. HHHEEEELLLLPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's not that we watch that much really. The girls are in school, A is working and I am cleaning or doing something during the day. Also, my house is a split level and there is no TV in the common area of my upstairs. The big screen is downstairs and I am never down there during day light hours unless I am doing laundry. With that said, I watch absolutely no until about 7 in the evening. I do not watch the news. I didn't even know about the whole volcanic ash/airline crisis in Europe until about 5 days after it happened.
But for some reason, when you tell someone the can't do something, that's ALL THEY WANT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hell, even when I was in Thailand, I watched Thai news in bed even though I did not know one word being said!
My kids only watch movies that we start for them, Finnius and Pherb, or the Discovery Channel. I am not that worried that they are addicts. They are never ever ever ever ever going to watch crap like Hannah Montanna, or The Suite Life, where kids act like assholes and talk to adults like the are equals. Kids are sassy enough without giving them the idea that they can talk like that.
Nothing much has changed from this TV-less week. Maybe a little more itunes, but Elton John never made a kid a serial killer...did he?
Peace Out
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